Post by tenora07 on Sept 20, 2009 23:34:17 GMT -5
Sara sat staring out the window. from the bottom of the world the night sky looked different than she was used to, and yet it was so beautiful out there with the stars and the snow. It was a starry night outside, and she sighed wishing she could take advantage of how romantic this felt. Just staring at the starts was nice, but it was a crystal clear view of them from this high. It was amazing.... and yet she was still alone. Ethan was no where to be seen.
She sighed. They'd agreed they were going to be slow about their relationship, take it at a pace both could manage, and yet Sara could help viewing each day of her life as a life or death situation. And the thing was, they really were likely to get killed fighting this war. People she'd known already had died because of it.
There had been so many times she'd wanted to be more affectionate, give Ethan a hug or kiss him, and yet he shied away from it and she didn't understand why. He'd done it again today, and she'd yelled at him and stormed off. Now she sat here alone and wished she could just be with him, just apologize. And yet..... I wish I could just understand you too.
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Ethan sat in the hanger on the entry ramp to Zach and Adamo's bugfighter. He didn't know how to feel right now. He was confused and yet it felt like his next move would make or break things with Sara. He could just see out the few windows in the hanger at the stars sparkling in a velvet black sky.
Sara will be looking at this too, but all the same we should be watching together. And yet, he didn't know where that would go. He wanted to show her more affection, and yet where would he stop if he started? He pushed her away, but only because he was worried that he'd try to go too far if he didn't. He stopped before he started only because he didn't think he'd have the control to stop before he went too far if he did start. And she needs to know that. You can't keep pushing her away and think that she won't want to know why.
Yes, she needed to know. Ethan was definitely not the kind of guy who could just go say that though. He'd never been in a relationship before, and had no idea what he was doing so didn't want to make a false move, and it stopped him from making any moves at all. So instead he just sat there and sighed, wondering what Sara was doing.
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Sara stood up and paced her sleeping quarters, a room she only ever used when she was at the Academy. Today had been alright before her fight with Ethan. She'd gotten to see Joel and Matt, which had been a happy and tearful moment for all three. She only wished it didn't have to end this way, alone and sad.
She heard footsteps outside and rushed to the door, opening it and looking outside only to have her expression of hope fall. It wasn't Ethan come to talk, it was just Adamo and he had probably only been passing by.
"Hi," she said weakly. It was far to obvious she had been hoping to see someone at the door when she'd opened it. I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up. He's probably not coming. I should have known that.
